Why is it so hard to do what is right?
To hold myself in, instead of ignite?
God wants His kids to say "No!" to what's bad,
To be in conrol instead of get mad.
Dear Father above, please help me to be,
The sweet little girl You so want to see-
A girl full of goodness, loving and true,
Who's wanting to grow to be more like You.
Yes. This is from a children's book. As I sat on this couch (heavenly right?)
and read this book to the babies the other night,
I started to think: The lessons we learn as little girls really are the same, simple lessons we carry with us. I know it is a simple prayer from a simple little book, but it really touched my heart. I don't know why, but I have been in a funk recently. Nothing exactly particular that is bothering me, just overwhelming feelings of not being the girl that God wants me to be, and the girl that I want to be. I got into a huge fight with my sister last week over something silly, and ended up really upsetting her. My sisters are the MOST important things to me, and I love them more than anything. My baby girls (19 and 23! ha) look up to me, and I have a responsibility as a big sister to be a positive influence, and lead them by example.
Sometimes I forget just how important this is. Yes my sissies are my friends, but they are also younger than me, and they look up to what I am doing. I have struggled with that recently. I so want to be the big sissy to them that I know I am, I just had a moment of weakness and treated them as equals-as my peers, when I need to remember that there is a time and place for that, but my most important role, is to be their big sister, and their role model. I pray that God will continue to guide me, and help me to be the wonderful girl that I know I am, a better Christian, a better big sister, a better friend, a better daughter, a better everything.